King of Bats
My card this morning was the King of Bats.
I’ve been bats all week this week. I guess I’m living in my head these days.
I don’t know whether this card reflected my day, or is admonishing me about my day. I do know I did a lot of planning, but I don’t feel that I really made much headway with all my plans. It’s as though I made tons of lists in my head, that all seemed perfectly reasonable and necessary, and then simply tossed them all away and made a fairy necklace. I took a walk. I chatted with the ladies in the bead store. Then I bought some beads I really can’t afford, and bought some candy that my body definitely Does Not Need.
So much for behaving logically.
Maybe the King is yelling at me. My husband often comes up in readings as the King of Swords. And he does his share of ‘yelling’ at me to get organized and Get Things Done. He of the logical brain, and me with my head in the clouds.
Okay my husband does not really yell at me. He’s very sweet about it actually, and tries to encourage me in the efficiency department. And I feel bad, and feel like I’ve let him down, when I can’t seem to get my act together. And to be honest, the King does not look like he yells at anybody either. I think maybe he just wants folks to get on with things. Straighten up and fly right and all that. Doesn’t he seem that way sometimes?
Still, I made a very pretty necklace today. Maybe the King can let me off the hook this time. Just this once…
Compassion
Since I quit my job, I’ve been fighting depression. I’ve been trying to figure out what to do for a living. I haven’t a car, or even a driver’s license and there is no public transportation from where I live. I’m sorta stuck in this small town, and attempting generate income from my websites, from reading Tarot online and freelance projects that I can do from home.
Things could be worse, although I would like them to be better. But I’m not homeless and I’m not starving. I think this depression is actually frustration. I do not feel as though I’m pulling my weight around here. Though logically I’m doing all I can. But I’m not always the most logical person in the world, especially when it comes to judging myself.
Today, for my daily card, I drew the King of Cups. I used the Gummy Bear Tarot
When I pull a daily card, I read it as primary energy or something I need to keep in mind for the day. So when I pull a court card, I rarely interpret it as a person. This is the case with today’s card.
I’m always amazed at how the Tarot ‘perceives’ my feelings, my needs and exactly what state of mind I’m in. This card, in this case, represents full and complete compassionate energy, understanding and emotional support. Considering my present circumstances, I’m doing all I can.
I need to stop being hard on myself, and to cultivate an understanding of my situation. I really am doing all I can do right now.
